Wall of text alert haha.

After one year of waiting, stress and cosplay rush, Otakuthon is already over. Gnyaaah, time goes by so fast! At least, I enjoyed my week-end overall. Now, con report!

FRIDAY
Before Otakuthon, I ate in the Chinatown with my friends and it took so much time that when I arrived at the Palais des Congrès at 15:45, the line up was HUUUGE. At least, I met a lot of my friends that I haven’t seen for a long time so the line didn’t seem that long. When I finally came to pick up my Even Host badge, the girl said that I wasn’t on her list (???) so she would give me the “normal” badge. I said (or yelled… because we can’t hear a thing with all those people and because of the big glass thing between her and me) that I have my workshop with Ria on sunday and all, but she didn’t want to listen to me. So I left the place to find Ria and to tell her the whole thing. She brought me to see that girl again and after five minutes of negociation, she finally… throw me the Even Host badge with a really pissed face. What a nice service…! So because of that, I had two badges for the week-end… Hahaha.
After that, I joined Ricky (who cosplayed Kaitooo <3) and started to take a few pictures of some cosplayers around. Then Ria joined us and we wandered in the convention. So much people omg. I saw Pakou at the Artist’s Alley and I bought a fanart of Miku Hatsune (so cuuute and well done!) and also the single of HIMEKA <3. I also got a cute-chibi-Miku keychain and Ricky got the cute-chibi-Kaito’s one XD Afterwards, we went to eat in the Chinatown with Simon. The food was so great! Chinese food FTW! And we ended up our day by karaoke-ing until midnight YAY~!

SATURDAY
Waaah, so tired in the morning, I slept at 2:00 am LOL. I was kinda sad because my wig was sooo messy. It cost me an arm and leg ;_; Anyway, I arrived at 10:30 and after I get changed in next to no time, it was already our Vocaloid Photoshoot organized by Simakai. So I picked up my Kaito/Ricky and ran to the photoshoot area XD It was truly awesome to see all those Vocaloid cosplayers! But I had to left for a few minutes and when I came back, everybody was gone T___T I was so disappointed! At least, we had group shots, and the photographer took some pictures of me alone and then with Kaito. Then, Ricky and I wandered in the Dealer’s Room and we left the convention for the Matsuri. So hot outside, OMG. My head was burning, my arms were burning, my eyes were burning, everything was burning XD We walked in the old port and of course, we got lost… XD After asking a few people, we found our way and… WAAAH so much people at the Matsuri too! But it was so fun! We rented yukata, took pictures, poked my niichan Viet (who was a volunteer at Matsuri), ate good food (but it was so expensive and small ;_ and finally ran after cold beverage. It was so funny when we came in the Tim Hortons and they told us that they didn’t have Iced Cap left… We were like “This is a joke, right? What’s Tim Hortons without ICED CAP omg!” So we went to McDo and bought a huuuge coke, YAY so great! Later on, we came back to Otakuthon, get changed again and went to the Karaoke Contest. It was really fun Not too much people because everyone was at the Mascarade so I didn’t wait too long to hear my friends and to sing my song. Congrats to Aya-Chan and Ricky <3 And I still think that Xin (hope I didn’t misspell her name… should have won! At 22:00, we went outside to watch the fireworks. It was beautiful, especially at the end of the show with those random circles which reminds me of Harry Potter games I used to play haha XD And once again, we ended up our day by karaoke-ing YAY~


SUNDAY
Woke up super earlier again to finish my workshop thing with Ria and to practice my song for Otakuthon Idol auditions. Then, I came to the Palais des Congrès to meet Ria, Aya, Éliane, Ricky and everyone to cheer them up for the auditions. When my turn came, I wasn’t expecting much. I practiced all summer long for my song, my voice and my breathing but I’m faaar to be super good even if I’m better than before. I was really pissed when they cut me before the chorus… What the fcuk?! My song has like 30 minutes of instrumental, so I only sang like… four lines? What their judgements will be based on, then? Anyway, as I said, I wasn’t expecting much, I just did it to support my friends above all.
What a surprise when Ricky told me that they chose me as a finalist for Otakuthon Idol. [link]. It’s impossible. I only sang four lines! FOUR LINES, GOSH. Then, I heard everyone around me saying those things like “What the fuck, it can’t be possible, why [put a good singer name here] isn’t on the list, why so much Asians, who are the judges, what the hell is going on with the auditions, and blahblahblah”. How can I be happy, then? I just had the feeling that I didn’t deserve it. Anyway, some good friends came to cheer me up and to support me and I appreciated a lot. It made my heart all warm. Thanks to you.
Then, I came in the backstage with the finalists and I realized that I forgot my CD in my bag in the checkcoat… Just as I said, I was sure to not win this…
I was full of adrenaline when I came on the stage, I heard my friends yelling my name and screaming love to me and I was really really touched. Just like I said on the stage, I know my song is hard but I will give my 100% on this. And yes, I sang Daybreak’s Bell with all my heart. It was my first time on stage thought and I think that I gave my best. Even if I fail on those high pitch parts and all, I was really proud of myself after singing. I know that I’m far to be a good singer but I also know that I have potential and I was happy that someone from Otakuthon Idol noticed it. And also, I would like to congrats the winner of this year, he really deserves it!
But when I was back in the convention, I heard people told me things like “Your voice is so low, poor you, we can’t do anything with this kind of voice”… or people who said that I was bad or “LUCKY” to be at Otakuthon Idol. I was like… Really? It’s a question of LUCK, then? My performance was that lame? Was I that bad after all? And then I realized that maybe I was terrible, maybe my song was absolutely horrible and all. I started to have emo thoughts… Why do they choose me? Because I am Asian? Because of my cosplay? Because I look “cute”? Because maybe I did a panty shot during the auditions? Because the judges of the auditions are at my college? Why? Why the hell did they choose me if I’m thaaat bad?
I was REALLY upset and I just wanted to cry. I’d rather be in the public to support my friends singing. Everything was so awesome on the stage, why people are so mean after? I felt that even if I practiced a lot and even if I did the best I could, my work was shit and I didn’t deserve to sing on stage at all. But… They’re right after all, Otakuthon Idol is a competition. And I think that competition is not for me… Seriously. I love to sing, I would like to become better and better, but I don’t want to be a professional singer. That’s why I won’t do this again. I’ll devote my time on cosplays, participate in the mascarade or drawings contests instead… No more singing contest for me. Anyway, like everybody seems to think: there was something wrong in the auditions this year! Ha ha ha.
I felt like shit yesterday. I wanted to change my name and to move out to Russia or China. But now, I think I’m okay. Time goes by and I guess that everybody will forget about this one day.

After this, my friends and I ate in rush and then Kumikyoku workshop with Ria-Chan <3 It was really nice in spite of the lack of organization in the beginning. Everybody (especially the guys) was on fire and I’m sure we did a great video of this! Thanks again for coming!

Overall, the convention was nice. I took great shots and I had good times with friends. I would like to thank all the people who support me… You know who you are and let me tell you that without you guys, I’m nothing. From all my heart, thank you very very much. I’m lucky to have friends like you.
And also, thank you Ricky for all you’ve done, and especially to dedicate me your song. You made me cry. And just remembering that moment brings tears back.

GEEZ, it took all my day to write this. You know how hopeless I am with English HAHA. Anyway, I’m tired now. See ya >w<